Heya guys what have you been doing ?

First of all I really whant to apologize ; and I understand that no amount of apologising is going to fix it but I am doing it anyway !

I'm sooo sorry for not checking or replying to you all during my birthday; you really are soo precious to have remembered me and I feel myself tearing up everytime I remember this. I really wanted to post and check your messages for so long ; but for some reason I was never able to work up the courage to do so. I really want to be yelled at right now for not even posting a singlr JOURNAL for thanking you but that would hardly bring you all any justice and even thought ,y schedule was packed up I could have at least said a thank you . I really have no excuses and it's ok if you hate me (even thought I know that you are to sweet to hate me; you are all soooooo precious and I really love love love love love you all)

Thank you so much for supporting me even when I'm not there. I feel really blessed. But the question is should I still replay even after all this time? will it be ok ? I want to get to know you all or you know... to learn new tthings about the peaple I already know (OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU LOL BITCH YOU THOUGHT I WOULD FORGET ????)

GUYS,

<sup>sorry for not uploading for so long ,but I hav a question:

DO you just feel like you wanna destroy your laptop, flip your bd or probably just light everything oN FIRE AROUND YOU ???? bc I do right now !

I've been making some "happy new year" art and then mY JUsT WHEN FREAKIN' FINISHED IT GOT DELETED !!!! MY PRECIOUS WORK NOOOOOOOOooooooo !!!


WOOOO WAY TO START THE YEAR ELENA  *uninpressed slow as hell clapping*


so... yeah sorry about ranting and happy new year to all my favourite chicken nuggets //gets slapped.


LOVE YOU ALL !</sup>

I wanted to talk to you all about something !:bademoticon: 

okay  so I have the same english teacher I had last year (wow how unlucky can I get ?) and he showed us a video of the places he went to this summer , and he just suddenly turned to me and asked me what I thought about something (I wasn't really listening) . 

So I wanted to say "it's awesome" at first but remembered I'm talking to my teacher so I decided to switch to "I think it's great" . 

but then my brain fucked up  ...:bademoticon: 


... and I ended up saying "I think It's gross" and my whole class just turned and started laughing . It's been 2 days now and I'm still not over it.:bademoticon: 


has anything like this happened to any of you before ?:bademoticon: 

-A.A

hey guys !!!

lately I've seen some things I want to discuss with you.

this didn't happen once or twice, I don't mean to offend any of you deviants but :

there are some peaple stealing my OC (a.k.a Elena ) and renaming her as they please.

I never wanted to say this but do you even under stand how precious this character is to me ? did YOU think it was easy to create a character ?? try to give them a personality ??? how lazy can you be to just steal other peaple characters ? is it because I can't maintain constant activity here? so , just because I'm practicly dead doesn't mean I don't check here from time to time , it also doesn't mean that I'm throwing her away ; honestly how LOW can you get ????? , as far as I believe this character is the only thing that is keeping is in DA along with the trustworthy peaple that I've met here (thank you a lot , I never forget about you ,always remember) .


If you want an OC that badly, please try to make one with your own effort , and don't go stealing from other peaple . thiefery is a discusting act when there is no reason to it (seriously it's not like you are lacking money, brain or a computer to make one) and I'm starting to wander if you a conscience to do this . I didn't go stealing other peaple for my own satisfaction the first time. I also won't give names because I at least considered how'd you feel if someone wrote bad things about you , I won't even curse or anything no matter how frustrated I am but I will keep an eye on things here and if it continues I might as well report you ( yes I'm threatning even tho I tried not to; it hurts too much to ignore)  so spare yourself the humiliation.

Also, dear watchers and friends , please be careful of thiefs , and stay safe !!! Love to you all! ( because you are important and I love you all !! )

A.A

 

 I WON'T STOP UNTIL I'VE COMPLAINED ABOUT EVERYTHING !!!! 

It was painful.

drawing became like a drug to me , it took 60% of my time ; I ued to (and still) draw whenever and wherever I was ; I even literally drew 68 pages these last vacations (dat moment when I released it ( Q A Q ) //dies ) 

but you know what's more painful ?

my mom pressured me to stop drawing so I could do well in class but I couldn't in fact i got worse because it was some sort of stress relief ; so I escaped by drawing at school , during lunch or break times. 



everytime I drew during lunch (too much free time I don't eat lunch to begin with ) and some of my "classmates" catched me ; they would parade it around the class , wich was humiliating , or in better cases ; start tearing the paper and throw it before telling the others about it , they'd start laughing and then tell me that I was drawing AGAIN and if I'll ever get tired.

:bademoticon: dem freakin' bullies  

I tried not to care ; it still didn't work. tried to change hobbies? got worse ; NOBODY UNDERSTOOD trying to change something I did from a young age was impossible.

this all began when a teacher told us that cartoon was something that peaple drew by hand so I decided to try ; and before I could understand it was already too late.

but the most painful thing of all ...

is that in the end I couldn't stop so I decided to distance myself from deviantart , (wow how ironic ) and my hand hurts from all the drawing ; typping  ; playing otoges aaaaaaand doing piano (peaple think it's great but yo das hell don't even try it) :bademoticon: mothafuken hand WHY  

 weeeeeeeeeeell looks like it didn't work and i'm back to scare 1 ; lol well then let's just go about it from the start ;  so I guess i'll stick with it . 

 wish me good luck!!! 

   well then ...

you must be tired of hearing me complain huh....  

  now that i've been emptied goo'bye:bademoticon:  
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quote of the day :

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 
― Marilyn Monroe